In the movie Hacksaw Ridge, Desmond Doss has enlisted in boot camp and things aren’t going as expected. The reason why things are not going so well?
He is not willing to bear arms. He desires to be a combat medic. As millions are trying to kill, he wants to heal as many as possible.
This past week I had one of the lightest schedules in recent memory. I had a really nice time enjoying things I just normally don’t get to do.
First of all, what a fast paced week. There was a lot going on and needless to say I definitely was more aware of my interactions with others than the previous week.
Can you believe I made it a whole week without punching someone?! It’s the little things, you know?
I had a good week, by business standards. I also had a good week when it comes to eating well, working out, and getting enough rest.
But, I noticed something is wrong…
As I began last week in what I would call a “non-ideal” headspace (to say the least) I focused on a good routine and spent a little more time with my nucleus both in-person and on the phone.
I found myself feeling low, but no longer depressed. I was worried, but not depressed.
After an incredible trip to Colombia, I was back in the office in Houston.
As much as I was excited to get back to my routine, another feeling quickly set in.
I was depressed. I am depressed.
I spent the entire week with our team members from Colombia (plus the wonderful addition of Maribel from the Dominican Republic).
We were in Bogota, Cartagena, Baru, and more. But, the focus was all on Cartagena.
The first-ever Fountain Forward Colombia Summit was on!
On Friday I arrived in Bogota, Colombia. I am here, along with Phil, to meet our team that we’ve been working with for the better part of two years. We now have team members across South America, Philippines, and North America.
They say you don’t really have a business until it can run without you.
I, in general, agree.
If the business goes backwards without me then I didn’t do a very good job setting it up. If it grows a little slower without me, that’s reasonable, but if it goes backwards we have a problem.
I had a great week. It started off with a higher level of anxiety coming off the five days in Vegas (not a surprise) and then quickly improved as the week went on.
Oftentimes when I come out of an anxious streak I will turn the other way having to fight grandiose and euphoric thoughts. This can lead me into trouble because it only takes one “edgy” decision to start building risky momentum.
