In my opinion, it’s really not a search for happiness, but instead a search for peace.
I think the search for happiness feels at times like the search for a “high” which proportionately brings lows after I’ve achieved such a high. It seems as if when I feel a “middle of the road” type mood that in fact, I am experiencing some sort of resonance or I suppose you could call it peace.
I recently came across two quotes:
“Happiness is contingent”
“Peace is internal and offers resilience”
Even though we made big progress in business last week I continued to struggle with my thoughts. As soon as I was alone, the struggle began.
There were a few different times where I just sat still, looking out into the distance, trying to find my center. Trying to find… Peace.
I wasn’t trying to be happy, I just wanted peace.
Amidst those negative thoughts was tremendous patience. I didn’t let them take over me. Or, as we call it in the Optimal Being program, I didn’t let my “Automatic Decision System” react and take action…
I wasn’t willing to have small talk this past week. If I’m going to use my energy, let’s fucking talk about shit that matters. Shit that is going to deepen our relationship or fuel our future(s).
On the positive side of having a little attitude, that head-space led me to some very special and productive conversations with a few colleagues as well as my girlfriend, Elizabeth. A week of “unpacking” if you will.
As for my highlights of “peace” from last week… I held a five week old baby.
I’ve been apprehensive about holding children for as long as I can remember. Mostly about responsibility, I suppose. But, when I saw little Archer I just wanted to hold him.
It was fucking awesome. It was, he was, pure love. I was having a beautiful moment of resonance.
It brought me 10 minutes of peace which was more than welcome. Thanks, Archer!
The week ended with a beautiful dinner celebrating a birthday WHICH INCLUDED a bottle of wine from the year Elizabeth was born. I recall sitting there swirling the wine thinking about the person who put the wine in the bottle 31 years prior and all the things that have happened since that moment. It was nostalgic and of course, delicious.
Looking forward, here’s to a special week in Las Vegas with my cousin and business partner, Nick.
We’re here representing The Heights Luxury Watch Company sourcing watches for our clients but most importantly growing as cousins, partners, and friends.
I know his dad Gary, my godfather, is smiling watching us work our tails off trying to say our not yet famous tagline…
Let’s get this watch on your wrist!
– SJ