A weekly journal of my journey
written candidly.

First of all, a little extra stress has me waking up between 5:30 and 6:15 AM pretty much every day. The issue is, I’m not going to bed any earlier and some nights way later.  It’s been about 10 days, and it’s really weighing on me. More and more people keep mentioning how tired I look.  Well, everyone, I’m trying to get down at night, and I have been unable to… But I’m making progress. 

This week was the definition of character building, with a lot more coming. My mind is running, I’ve had little sleep, and I’ve got a long, challenging, and probably rewarding week ahead.  I’ve worked myself up a little more than I meant to. I’m using this writing as an exercise to recenter.  Thinking about the controllables as I’m sitting here writing. 

I spent the week in Cabo on my annual golf trip with my buddy, Hong. It’s a week focused around golf, great food/cocktails, and camaraderie with the boys. I’m in such an odd spot with golf. One which I’m grateful for and unbearably frustrated all at once. Before I get into that, I had an especially weird mentality with Fountain Forward this week. I could not kick my, “I wonder if something is going wrong” rumination.

I felt like I was focused and wandering at the same time this week. I had this empty feeling during the middle of the week like I was searching for something. Something more? Idk. Something, that’s for sure.