A full week in Houston. It was a focused week by all reasonable measures.
Great to have our new hire on the sales team get started with a bunch of listening and solid questions. He seems eager to get selling.
CG flew to Houston for a few days, and man, it was great to catch up with him. I love working with him, and I appreciate him as a friend and confidant.
When he’s around, I feel he carries the pursuit of truth. We can have a deep conversation with a ton of personalities involved, and when it’s all said and done, I’m confident that he and I could meet behind closed doors and get to decisions (and good ones) quickly.
I reckon that’s quite a noble pursuit.
This week represented moments of realigning boundaries and future vision. We made a lot of progress. I thought about what I was going to write, and the things that kept coming to mind all reminded me of building a brick wall.
Brick by brick, we got better this week.
I feel as if I reached out for help to the great team around me, and I was more detailed in my request, which yielded a better outcome. I think I might’ve been a little bit harsh on certain people around me when I probably could’ve just given better direction to get the outcome we all desired.
I did my best to give a lot of grace this week. It was well received.
This week I also had a group session with Elizabeth and Rex. I’ve had a few group sessions in the past with Rex but never with a significant other.
It went really well. Elizabeth was amazing, and so was Rex. I won’t forget that experience, that’s for certain.
As the week rounded out, I was trying to get my golf swing back after having some seriously bad swings a week ago. I really sucked last weekend.
Well, here’s a story for the ages.
It’s hole eight on Friday, and I’ve just made my fourth bogey in a row. I ended up throwing my putter as far as I could out of frustration.
Not a great look, and as I’ve been playing better recently, I’ve also been throwing clubs more when things are not to my liking.
I’m working on that.
As I stepped up to my eagle putt on hole nine, I noticed I broke my putter. It’s been a long time since I actually broke a club.
Interesting to think about standing on the ninth tee all pissed off and now standing over a six-foot eagle putt. My “give a damn” was completely gone, and now I’m back on track.
I two-putted for birdie and ran to the golf shop for a putter.
I then played the back nine nearly flawlessly with a five-under par 31 and a total score of 69.
I had eight birdies and five bogeys.
Damnit that felt good! I knew I could put together a birdie fest, and my hard work made it happen.
When I stood on the 18th tee box, I put a little pressure on myself to see how I would handle it.
I bombed my drive right down the middle and then stuffed my 7-iron to 12 feet with a putt for 30 on the back.
I really wanted to finish strong, and I did just that.
Golf means a lot to me, and I love playing well.
I have crossed over a new level of play, and I must say the round in Wisconsin, and then this round, meant a lot to me.
Both rounds were a culmination of hard work. I chipped, I putted, and I practiced my full-swing drills.
I also built a lot of self belief.
I still have my evidential mind talking very negatively at times. No one has ever been as mean to me as I’ve been to myself. It’s still defining at times.
That leaves me with the word of the week: Judgement.
I’ve been judging myself a lot lately for a myriad of reasons. I caught myself twice this weekend and took a pause to center my mind and my energy.
I’m going to make mistakes, and I’m going to make decisions that aren’t always the best for me long term.
I’m going to have great presentations and not so great ones.
I’m going to play BAD GOLF, and that’s ok.
It’s ok to let loose and have fun.
It’s ok, Stephen.
Just try to keep things in moderation.
Not too high, not too low. Free of judgement.
I’m feeling lighter this week, and I’m feeling very giving. I want to help those around me a little extra this week.
Grateful for my time on the golf course with friends and playing the game I love at a very high level.
It’s time to do my best again this week. Let’s see what the universe has in store.
– SJ