There’s a lot going on in the world, and things are moving very fast.
That’s a consistent topic between Rex and I.
The speed is engineered to keep us in the automatic decision system, or as Don Miguel Ruiz calls it, the dream.
Hoping we never wake up from that dream.
I feel cynical when I think of things this way, but the world is speeding up, and our attention has been controlled much more than I would have anticipated.
I’m wired for speed. This fast-paced world gives me all the distractions I’ve ever wanted.
The majority of which I do NOT benefit from. There I go with the cynicism again…
I feel a little of the extreme on each side right now.
I’m coming off a fantastic trip to Napa with my business partners. We had a very special trip which included world class wine tasting, golf, and plenty of good food. That trip pushed my love for wine even further.
It also gave me time to laugh, connect, and argue with my partners. All of which are necessary for a great partnership. Whenever I have conversations with Chris, it’s interesting to see which lens he sees me through based on his questions. Regardless of how I feel about the conversations, they are always thought provoking.
Going back to my overall mental state, and this word came up as I was typing, I feel uneasy.
Uncertain.
I can see things in my future that, for the first time, make me feel anxious.
Fear based.
I’ve taken on a lot more risk in the past few years, and as our companies, especially Fountain Forward, grow larger, the risk is inherently much higher. I’m more excited, but I’m also more fearful.
So, I had a long flight last night from SFO to MIA, where I had plenty of time to think about it.
That’s when it hit me. This is a great time for me to get back to my “life vision” board and my purpose and reverse engineer.
Taking a step back to breathe, visualize, and look at my current situation. This is often a time when I consult with Adam Barr, my CPA and great friend. Also a conservative spender.
But…
Just because I have an understanding of where fear comes from and I know the process to follow from here, but I still have those feelings I mentioned above.
I am still feeling the pressure and the fear. But, I’m breathing my way out of it.
This week I’m jammed packed in Miami and Naples, working on some projects for The Heights Luxury Watch Co, Fountain Forward, and Accounting Labs. I’m also going to see my father’s new place (and see my niece and nephew) for the first time.
It’s going to be a lot, but it’s truly what I want to be doing.
That’s what gets me through most of my fears. This is what I want to be doing, and as long as I make sure I don’t push myself too far, I’ll be just fine.
I’m going to work on getting some good sleep, getting some hotel workouts in, and then once I get later into the week, I’ll spend some quality time with Elizabeth.
Heck, I might even share what’s in my head, but who knows what mood I’ll be in.
As it is every so often, my emotions are very high, but my writing has brought me back to center and refocused me. As it is in the cover photo for this blog, I’m focusing on a fresh start to the week.
It’s time to walk tall with my chin up and shoulders back, getting ready to climb through the week.
– SJ