I had a good week, by business standards. I also had a good week when it comes to eating well, working out, and getting enough rest.
But, I noticed something is wrong…
I could feel my desire to go do things that “stimulate me” and keep me from “sitting alone with my thoughts.” Things that keep me busy, if you will.
Then…
I had two people mention they thought I was abnormally “manic” and moving at a faster pace. That they thought something may be a little, “off.”
And then…
I was playing hockey on Saturday night and after a little disagreement with my teammate (and dear friend) I snapped and punched him.
Ugh. Not a good moment for me. Not at all.
Honestly, it’s a showcase of where I’m really at. A reality check.
I’m still on a rollercoaster, even though things are on the right track.
I think I’ve realized that even though I’ve drastically improved where I was previously I’m so far from where I need to be.
As I grow in character I have to avoid growing in ego. I think internally that’s a larger struggle that I realized.
It definitely came out on Saturday and on Sunday I felt the weight of reality on my shoulders.
Things are moving fast, and the optics are amazing, but if there is inner turmoil (and there clearly is) it will show up.
“You’re very talented and you’re a champion, congratulations you were chosen as one of God’s favorites. But, you’re also one of the Devil’s favorites.” – Mike Tyson
Time to get back to work with a little more wisdom than a week ago.
A reminder to breathe.
Hopefully a better report next week.
-SJ